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I am the shittiest friend one could have and I admit it.

Basically why I haven't written anything in past few weeks is because it's a mess. I have my finals going on. I've had 4 exams so far and now Friday's gonna be the last one. I can't say that any of the exams would have gone significantly well, rather the opposite. So I've been really upset considering that I go to uni based on these 5 exams and nothing else. And I didn't get Into Mackintosh School of Architecture because my portfolio got to Scotland too late, so amazing news coming from every possible direction. Yay to spending the air in the middle of nowhere called home! Maybe I'll go to Tartu though, which is the local university city.

Other than that I am not too miserable.. nothing too interesting hasn't been going on.

Basically life equals studying hard, partying even harder and then studying again. I feel dead and my English is crap, so sorry.

Good news part: I was asked to be chairing at an international session of European Youth Parliament this summer in Liverpool. I still hope to somehow see you guys as well, but guess we just have to figure it out sometimes soon...


And even though I know it looks like I don't really care, I just wanted to say that I miss you two more than ever and catching up today almost made me cry.

Being back on track feels extremely good. Basically I still feel really weak and tired from the operation but somewhat happier in a way.

The only thing that is kind of ruining my happiness is the snow. I fucking hate global warming. Why can't I have snow during Christmas, or whatever in winter at least? Why does it have to start snowing on Easter Sunday? WTF?!

So the main reason why I haven't written anything in a while was that once I got back to school I had so many things to do. Sometimes I even had 9 or 10 classes a day. Not to mention the work I had to do at home. The good thing was that I only had two put up with that for like 2 or 3 weeks. Those weeks were mad awkward cause I was not allowed to drink or to be too active. That's why I spent most weekends at home. It's not like I can't go out and have fun without drinking but it's just weird. People get so melodramatic when they drink and I don't like seeing that. Not to mention that most things they say is total rubbish.

Anyhow last Friday was the last day of school before spring break. During last period we went on a trip to Russian Culture Centre to see some icons. I know I'm being miss negative 2008 again, but they were not the best ones. After that me Iie Anna and Maret went to our home pub Hell Hunt (eng: gentle wolf). I had dreamt about it for like two months. Some Iie's other friends came as well and we just had a few drinks. Then mom called and told me that Gus is home and is making stake for dinner. So me and Iie went to mi casa and ate some more and drank some more. Dad left soonish and some Gus's friends came over as well. We went to get some champagne and after that I basically don't remember anything. Well I know we left my house and went to a cafe to meet up with other ppl and then to Hell Hunt again and i think i went home after that. I met Olle on the way home and he walked my home, which is good, considering my drunkenness. Il va de soi that I felt sick the next day and even the day after.

Monday i went to school for an History exam class and also to refresh my memory. Turns out i didn't do anything too stupid. NICE! Wednesday morning I was off to Tartu for the History Olympiad state finals. I didn't do that well but don't really care either. After that I met up with Mari-Liis. In the evening we went out to a friend's house and then to a club, which was way too crowded. I ended up with a blue mark on my knee. The next day was Mari-Liis's bday so we just stayed at her house and she had a lot of ppl coming over. Next day was home and Easter and party and now it's school again. Now how cool is that.

Gotta work now.

Luv u

Wow! It's now official 2 weeks that I've spent home. I've left my house exactly three times. Twice I've been walking my dog with Kusti and Friday I visited Mirjam in hospital. That's basically it, a complete social suicide.

Well actually life hasn't been that bad. The first week passed kind of quickly...cause I spent most of it in hospital and read some history stuff. Great success or NOT! I failed at the Olympiad, 8th place isn't exactly the best but whatever. Next Monday I had a lot of friends over. I told every one that they're welcome and suddenly they all came at the same time. At least I could do some catching up with Nummi since i hadn't seen her since New Year's in Riga. She only had hooked up with some 3 guys in meantime and managed to have and to loose a bf. C'est la vie! Iie came to bring me some school things. It was so good to see her. I hadn't imagined I'll miss her, but i guess if you're used to see a person next to you 8h every day it's kind of natural. Arseni and Kylli also stopped by and it was pretty fun. I was there big leader and told them some student government stuff to do. It's weird, when did i become the person that others come to for advice... i guess i'm getting old, as sad as it is. And now to the fun part, Ragnar came on Thursday and brought me PSP so i've been playing Tekken and Need For Speed these past few days as if it were my job. Love it.. mom hates it though! I'm like a 12 year old loser skater boy but i love it. No excuses. I haven't done any work so next weeks sounds like death..but it's only next week, right?

So Friday and Mirjam. That was pretty exciting. It took me 15 min to go to hospital that's only across the street - that's how slow i am. Well the baby was cute, i had for some reason imagined her (the baby) to be bigger but she was early so that might be the reason. Mims told me that giving birth is the worst thing that could happen to a person so i feel like i'm gonna adopt a baby. i know it's bullocks but seriously. It's my biggest fear... well before it used to be appendix removal operation but so much about that:D

My non-existing-life got to new limits yesterday, i ended up doing cupcakes for 3h.

So i guess going to school tomorrow isn't that bad after all.


And today it's Peku's birthday so i'm not gonna get anything done anyway. Before that i'm off to a family dinner at some friends. Which includes watching president's speech and all that since it's our independence day today.

so long lovers. i'm studying bio. at least for 15min, until i rediscover psp!